Obsession

I feel horrible -
You don't worry how...
Every morning I
Feel destroyed by...
You! ignoring! wow!
I have ruined my pride!
All your stories - lie,
Even your goodbye...
Turning "off" your head -
"On" your heart instead!
Never late to change,
Asking for revenge!
Love alive or die?
Laugh I need or cry?
Living lonely days,
Cary crown with grace?
Maybe chilling change:
Chivas & champagne?
No, it's no my way...
I will better pray:
For a happy life,
For a homeless guy,
For a losing child,
Saving our wild...
Maybe for myself,
If I need a help...
But today for you
If you only knew:
How it's hard to hide
Hole in heart from eyes.
High away will fly -
Searching dear life...