Tell me the truth

Tell me the truth
I know,what I’ve become..
Pathetic, useless fake,
The coward, cruel scum
And everyone’s heartbreak.
 
The people I’ve being known
For all my childhood
Have left me all alone,
Desisted being so good,
Showed there other sight
And turned on me their back.
It sounds like the invite
To lie detector’s check.
 
Today I’m plagued by doubts:
Do all of them so bad
Or me?Can be there out?
Will I get fully mad?
 
Maybe entire mass
Of all that endless griefs
Because of me,not less,
Cause I betrayed beliefs?
 
Well, if somewhere exists
The one, that needs me now,
The only one at least..
I’ll help you,just say – how?!