Disintegration degradation decomposing dying

Hateful existence
Weariness of life…
Ridiculous resistance?
Strife?
 
Just pressing pain,
Salvation in wine.
It’s all in vein…
Decline.
 
Ruins of my soul,
I give it to you.
No more self-control.
Only abyss of blue…
 
Bury fatigue bones,
Let my flesh decay.
Evil graveyard stones
Have nothing to say.
I have done my best
In this cruel world,
Now I need some rest,
I want to be cold.