Mothers hand

While I'm holding mother's hand
I'm sure I won't get lost
But someday everything will end,
That's scaring me the most.

And if she leaves me here alone
Among the darkest streets
Unlikely I will find my home
As she forever sleeps.

My name will live its own life,
The one of plenty names,
The one of those who gonna die,
Get lost without a trace.

I'm so ashamed of what I am
But I just can't explain
What's wrong with me and I just blame
Myself and feel the pain.

I wish I was a child as long
As I could ever be,
Till posters on my bedroom wall
Become alive for me.

Well, while I'm holding mother's hand
That doesn't let me go,
I must grow up till it's too late
But how? I just don't know.