Английское извинение русской души

Imagining living without your engaging
I slowly becoming an abandonment painter.
Who had all the paints for the colourful life.
But lost all the brushes and forgot how to write.
If darkness will come and I haven't got lights
I slowly become, like all running rats.
Who running in nowhere and looking for cheese
But in human reality the cheese equal needs..
The need to feel love and the warm on the side
Where u always can relay and desire,
But without having cheese you losing yourself
Becoming a monster for even yourself.
But only one thing is working like drug
It also an antidote for all different facts
For me it's a girls with a beautiful smile.
Addicted to chocolate her dog and the wine
She also soo cute, and the beautiful lady
Who living bit far and that's making me angry,
But just she appears and kissing me deeply
It's clearly dispelling all the dirt in me quickly.
She looking for happiness also like me.
I wish to do everything to make her even more happy.
 
 
"So what then it is you would ask me again?"
It's been wrote like a scroll which says: love me again.
 
граматика в местех специально такая, стих был из 3 частей , но если что, смогу добавить=_)